emotionally down

just soooooo many things happened that i wanna update you guys.
both good and bad stuff.

let me start with the bad things.
well, smt happened last week that i dont wanna bring up.
i am soooooooooo disappointed.
it NEVER happened in my entire life okay, at least that's for me.
and now, it happened.
the worst thing is that, I SAW IT!
i dont want to believe what i see but i have to believe my EYES!
the thought of facing it everyday, makes me feel so sick and tired of going there.

sigh, as much as i wanna share it with you, you are not there.
you can go out with others, but not me.
you can call the others, but not me.
you can sms the others, but not me.
where were you when i needed you the most?
do you know what am i actually feeling now?
i am tired, very upset, until now.
like my significance is neglectable.

HOWEVER, i can still feel God with me.
His words lingers within me.
sentences like "come unto me, all who are weary and I will give you rest"
and "even if we stumble, even if we fall, you'll not forsake us."

the best thing was that, He send me angels to brighten up my day.
they probably dunno that it was them, but i deeply appreciate it.
i would like to name a few, like D and G, S, X, J and MY MUM! :)))))) (who are all probably not gonna read this)

D and G - thanks for trusting me and accompanying me for this few days. and D, it think God allowed this thing to happen to draw the both of us closer to support each other spiritually and in all the ways. we're like sooooooo close la. the thought of all the silly things made me smile to myself. *i still cannot forget the kissessss. superrrrr funny! muacks!* thou your sm leader is strict, but i know you that its for your own good. Do QT k? i'll pray for you and THAT thing happened. ((:

S - maybe i'm silly enough to realise what that sentence was suppose to mean. if i'm not wrong, it should me what i interpreted. probably you didnt get a favourable reply from me, maybe you didnt know smt very important that you should know. i was very surprised that you'll feel that way, seriously. but thank God, we're just the way like before, or even better. you're really a great person, if i had a chance, i would want to. thank you for being so nice to me. thanks for your promise, your prayer, your encouragement, your care and your concern. i know you'll be there. ((:

X - it was really nice to see you again after sooooooooooo long. pai seh la. i really forgot that you'll forget me so i didnt say hi to you. thank God you are there to sms me even when i take sooooooo long to reply. *grin* for this past few days, i know a lot things abt you that i didnt know when we worked tgt (like i work there for 4 days only la.. =.='). i am glad that you show interest in coming to church. will pray for you to be free to come for my youth camp! (only if you want! ((:

J - i am glad that you always call, msg when smt happens to you. thanks for trusting me so much thou i know things you tell me may not be ALL that is happening to you. sorry for revealing things that i was not suppose to. i should be the one that apologise to you instead. Sorry, my friend. i took note of what you told me. so dont worry, i will try my best to initiate to call you and tell you things de. (cuz you're not the only one that complain =X). we always talk rubbish, nonsense, fool ard and match up couples. i hope that will last. please remember what you promise me k? dont change laaaaaa. really need you ard. will always be there to hear you out cuz i'm only a phone call away! *it applies to all!!* ((:

MUMMY - since young, i haven been telling you stuff but SOMEHOW, i told you what was happening to me now. thank you for all the advices, talking to me and listening to me. LOVE YOU MUMMY! and and, HAPPY I-DUNNO-HOW-MANY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO YOU AND DADDY! cont to be happily ever after with daddy. ((:

on the happier side, we're going to Sakura International Buffet for dinner tonight cuz its their anniversary.
and i'm gonna get my NEW phone!
like finally my phone will ringgggggggggg!!!!!!
haha.
was suppose to get it on sunday.
but the phone is out of stock at the Starhub at Ps.
i want the pink W580i!!!!!
i'm gonna get it if it is available at TPY tonight!

and another GREAT NEWS!
look at the pics below, i went to the radio station for a trip.
so since we're there, just go for recording lor.
in the end, i got chosen leh!!!
they just called me ytd to record my voice and ask me send to send my pic over *and so, it is a very good chance for me to camwhore*
vote for me!
i'll tell you guys when my recording and pic is up at the website.
i warn you not to laugh my chinese k?
it took me half an hour to come up with that short speech and i think i sound weird cuz i haven been speaking chinese very often.
i can feel that my voice change halfway when i was speaking and its trembling la.
grrrrr.
thanks Daz for being there hear the recording *she asked me to credit her for that. haha*

that's all for now.
i'll hope to post more often
just pray that i will not get Dssssssssssssssssss ):

blasting off to DG! ~~~~~~~~~~

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