i have been veryyyy busy since the start of holiday.
with camps, christmas performance and countdowns, i hardly hav anytime to rest until the first week of the year.
because of the wireless, i haven been getting sufficient sleep from the day i get to use it.
and my new year resolution will be to CONTROL!
before i go into it, i wanna thank a WHOLE list of ppl.

first thing first, i wanna thank my Daddy for placing me in this little part of Earth 17++ years ago.
i am very glad to be who am i and what i have today, very contented.
thank you for what you have given me and the kind of person that i am today.
i know i am not perfect but i know you will give to strength to live my life like JC.
thank you always being with me through my up and downs.
thank you for all the first times.
my first Mission Trip, during then, my first time Counselling, the start of my First Relationship, my first Breakup, my first Participation in a Public Competition, my first time being the Head of the Newcomer Ministry, my first Betrayal, my first Year of Experiencing Poly Life, my first Performance in Malaysia, my first time Attending the Watch Night Service, my first time Praying with a Friend in School, my first time attending Meta, my first time spending Christmas overseas, my first time celebrating my Birthday in school, my first time Taking the Last Train and many more. (pardon me for my goldfish memory)
thank you all this experiences.
thank you for the people whom you've place in my life to guide me, come and leave, love me or walk with me.

my familyi thank God that i am born in this family.
thank you mummy and daddy for bringing me to church when i was young.
if i am not in church now, i'll probably be like those cheena lians that you see on the street.
it because of my upbringing that makes me stand firm on God's word.
now that i've grown up, i know where you are coming from, dad and mum.
i know that everything that you're doing, its for my own good.
i use to envy other ppl's family.
but now, i am proud of my own.
my family has our own family day, we have a great cook grandma living 2 storeys down and we have relatives to visit every Chinese New Year.
thanks mum and dad for trying to blend into our world and making sentences out of words like "lame" and "noob". thanks for being an example, my role models.
thank you shaun for growing up and hav quit fighting with me. i hope that you'll cont grow mature. study well and i'm sure you can be a chef!
thank you jess for testing my patience and letting me learn the lesson of endurance. i hope that you can grow up soon and go shopping with me.

anshao, my 2nd family
the place where i start to learn, grow and know more about God.
thank you for tolerating all my nonsense in my growing up years.
thank you for giving me a chance to serve.
that is when i know what am i good at what i need to improve on.
i have seen lots of changes here since i came in.
from 12 to 40+!
it has been growing all because of God's grace.
from hi-bye friends to BFFs.
when i say FOREVER, i really mean FOREVER!
(unless you smelly butts wanna leave church)
we do like almost everything tgt.
eat, sleep, play, study, sing, shop, talk, cry, go crazy,
and i just cant get enough of you guys!
i have enjoyed my days here and am probably gonna be ard for a few more years.
now that we have grown in Quantity, its time to grow in Quality!
(maybe i should stop complaining abt the insufficient girls and un-gentlemen guys, i shall live with it (can i?))
Jia You and cont to live, love and serve God tgt!
I LOVE ANSHAO TO BITSSS!
to the guys: as angry as i may be, i still love you guys (:
dun be angry with us alright? (Ephesians 4:26, 27)
probably you guys will learn to be more gentlemen as you grow up.
but i'm glad that i've seen a few now *winkwink*
not that we wanna bring you guys down, but do more thing for us to be proud of you k? :D
do you know, when everytime i only hear the guys voice during Praise and Worship or even the for the workshop, i feel very touched?
i teared okay? *taoyan*

my siao cha bors!

my BBFs! junyan: now, you've got what you want.
but can you please dont leave?
you know everything you do will leave an impression in anshao.
you might think that you're insignificant but you make a big difference.
well, at least to me.
thanks for sharing, reminding and talking to me for the past year.
thou we do not talk now, i hope that you'll cont to do what you've always been reminding me.
and rmb, if you need me, i'm always here. :D
guangyi, twin: you are such an ass. but you know what? i am proud of you.
you sticked to your own principals when i didnt think that you will.
i hope will you stick to your new year resolution too!
and hope you succeed in being a gentlemen!
but at least to me, you're halfway there!
(nope, it isnt a compliment in case you are getting a tiny tweeny proud. HAHA)
anw, you're coolest rocker friend that i have.
(but i still like to call you techno tiko peh!)
thanks for always laughing at me ar!
i hope you like my SOAR throat!
*giggles like a crazy woman*
and and, your favourite verse - Proverbs 18:9! :D

i wanna write about sooooo many other people but if i cont, i'll have to post this for 2009

crosby, my ex boyfriend this is probably and first and the last time you'll see his photo in my blog like this.
after so long, i finally dare to mention about him without feeling upset.
i am very glad that i was once with him.
do you know that in the past, i always introduce to you to my friends proudly?
i was never ashame of that.
thank God that we once spent time tgt doing QT and praying for one another.
and i'm still very glad to say that we are still on talking terms.
i am also very proud of our relationship.
neither of us leave the church after we breakup, no backstabbing and both our parents and ppl from church knows abt it, we have nothing to hide.
thou i didnt expect it to end up like that, but it is still better than not being friends.
i am sure after the breakup, you led a better life right?
spending time with your friends and family.
(send my regards to aunty eileen, haha.)
until now, i still want to know what was going thru your mind when you made that decision.
but i guess it doesnt matter now.
you will get a better girl! (:
it was an experience where i've learn to embrace and let go of love, learn to forgive and to wait.
(and we're the first pair to date out of our batch of ppl from anshao. cooool!)
its because of you, that i get to learn so many things abt a relationship.
thank you.
lastly, what i've learnt from last week's sermon, for you - Proverbs 17:9
as for now, i feel that i'm not ready to go into another relationship.
after 18 i think. the best is after poly and the guy hav finished his NS.
i dun wan to break into pieces again.

RP crusaders i've never thought that i'll be part of crusade's big family.
when you ask me why i've chose to stay in crusade, i dunno either.
to me, it just feels like i must stay in there.
even though in the beginning, i struggled to go, i still stayed in the end.
i thank God that i'm still in it now.
its probably His plan for me in there.
i've learnt a lot things i've never learnt in anshao.
its like another felowship and i like it.
we work and play together, strive and yearn together.
the people there allow me to see different kinds of christians.
christians that i dun see in my own church.
like the way they lead worship.
its different yet still so close to God.
the deep voice of the guys, so different yet as touching.
thanks for letting me be part of you guys thou i screwed up some stuff eg. prayer chain :P
cont to teach me new things k?

les: thank you for the encouragements.

"We are not born accidental but
for a purpose in this world.
It may be insignificant, but it cannot be
missing.
And because we are so love by
God, somewhere in a corner, He placed our partner to encourage us when the going get though.
It may not be a
boyfriend, it may be a friend for now.
But at life's different stage, God
gives us different people He deem appropriate.
And even when you are giving
up, God sends angels to motivate you.
So that one day, you can see, your
perfect someone.
And because God wants us to be strong, so somewhere in the
middle, He would pass us some people that will teach us some lessons, so that
when we meet the perfect one that He choose, we would know how to treasure."

thanks for encouraging me even thou it hurts so much for you.
i know that it hurts too cuz we cried and hugged each other in Meta.
and i'll see more of cuz we are in the same course! (so les!)
but i know that you wun get bored of me right?
i thank God for you in my life!

dicipleship groupnever will i know that i'll end up in Jacqueline's Dg.
they say that i'm so much like her.
now i understand why they say you'll very much be like your leader.
i've experience it for myself, me being like her and others like me.
thanks for tolerating my nonsense and lameness in Dg.
i know i am hard to deal with when i am late and dont bring my materials. xP
thanks for teaching and guiding me.
also thank you sinying for always turning up for dg with me.
and i am awed by your memory in rmb-ing bible verses.
thanks to the both of you for moulding me into a better person!
and i know we can bring pris and mel back 1 day (: